The year is rapidly coming to a close. It has been a very eventful year, but I don't want to start a year ending post just yet. I bring this whole "year end" thing up because I have been struggling with the question of where am I going athletically. I'm not quite sure if I will be able to compete in the CrossFit Games again. My progress from my injured arm has affected me more mentally, rather than the obvious physical part. The lack of confidence in movements that only months ago, I was able to handle without any hesitation, plays heavily on my competitive nature. The need to perform at a high level and not being able to do so, leaves me wondering if I will be able to be ready for the upcoming competition season.

Take today's workout. An AMRAP in 7 minutes of 2 Muscle Ups, 2 315# Deadlifts and 2 Single Arm KB Thrusters @ 62#. This should have been an easy 5 round workout. I was only able to do 2 rounds in 7 minutes. The first 2 muscle ups took almost 4 minutes to complete. Pathetic! I kept going after the allotted time had elapsed and finished 5 rounds. The good news is that I was able to get 2 Muscle Ups in a row the last 3 rounds. I hold out for some hope with the thought that maybe I just needed to warm up a little longer. Give my shoulders a chance to get really warmed up before going for that first rep.
I'm trying to remain optimistic and stay patient with my returning strength in my arm and shoulder. It's just not happening as quickly as I want it to. I'm going to keep pushing ahead as though I will compete, but it will have to happen before the new year. Wish me luck.